my dear candy 231117

my dear candy 231117

today is our fifteen monthiversary

remember i first held your hand on 230816

time flies during fond times and good experience

first six months were sweetest

remember we make love for the first time when uncle chau is guesting

soon you suspect pregnant and ask for quick marriage

we went for many good food and visits with experience

we took plenty photos along the way

we have problems of you dont want to pay for your own share

fact is every couple is different and unique

i am with disabilities so i can only afford my share, sometimes paying your share of food with gifts and flowers

together is a companion of life not money nor profits but hearts and souls

i can afford my share so can you, together is purpose for share experience

though i cannot go for too extreme nor demanding sports, i went hiking and short trips with you which i favor for home cooking and relaxing with you consuming least and gaining peace

i understand you are exhausted during the week in work, that why for our good i suggest you come to me home relaxing

with both sea trips when we came back you were too drained and got ill

candy, we need to look after each other and ourselves

chinese herbal with chu is good for your internal communication to unblock your bottoms

blocked bottoms leads to cancer

chu is cheap if you boil the herbs yourself, its very easy

get a big pot
put the herbs in
add 15 bowls of tap water
big fire for 20 to 25 minutes
turn off fire
pour the herbal solution into another pot
bin the herbs
cool the solution
drink a bowl
when pot is cool, put in fridge
pour a bowl out each day steam it and drink it
need stronger drink twice or three bowls a day best morning afternoon dinner but ask chu first some herbs is very strong beware of overdose and poison

dont take fried nor roast
take steam boil cook

rest more

body is like a elastic band
dont stretch over the elastic limit

i cannot afford to always pay for you at the moment
but i love and care for you

i do feel anxious when you force me for trips
when i am on trip i am highly alert and anxious

i bought the boots and go hiking in chai wan with you for dragon back

love and care is understand each other difficulties and appreciate each other strengths

i believe you have money to support yourself
you just want to proof you can find someone pays for you
pays for you doesnt mean love and care

i sometimes pays for your dinner and presents and flowers and cakes, moon festivals and birthdays, valentines day and christmas

love and care is to experience together peace and pain joy and tear
love and care needs no money
money is not love and care

i promised to love and care for you
love and care is experience together sharing the journey of life and candies of joy and fruits of tears

i do fear when you force me on trips
i love you but i would color, you then say to me i am useless

if you experience my experience
you would understand me difficulties

but i wish peace to all souls
wish we can share experience and memories along path of life

i am a waiter
waiting for you my love

matthew bb to candy bb